I still find Cora in the light. I feel her when I sit in the warm sun. I hear her when the boys break out into giggle fits. I see her running with them around the backyard. I see good things happening in the world and I think of her. She is ever-present in our lives. She is our first born. She is our daughter. She is the reason we lead with courage and kindness. She is our reason we chose the light over the darkness.
Cora’s 3rd Birthday is two weeks from today. This is such a weird time of year for me. My birthday as well as my son’s birthday both take place in March. It is such a happy time. A time for celebration. A time of joy. And then abruptly, the feelings change. I start to see… Continue reading Cora’s Kindness – Diaper Drive!
There is an unexpected grief I have been introduced to. Grieving the loss of who I used to be. My daughter died. I am different now. I am not the same person. How could I be? There is a need to fix things once you have been broken. Glue all the pieces back together. Maybe throw… Continue reading The Unexpected Grief
He’s here! HE’S HERE :). Okay, he’s been here for 3 weeks but I am finally getting time to write down our experience bringing this beautiful boy into the world. Our sweet boy was born on March 10, 2017. He weighed in at 7lbs 8oz and was 19.25 inches long. We went to 30 doctor… Continue reading Rowan Arthur Boyd (Our Rainbow🌈)
Today marks 11 months since losing Cora. I have also reached 37 weeks pregnant with her brother. I have passed my point of loss of 36 weeks 6 days. We have spent much of this past month preparing our hearts and minds for the delivery of her brother. But at the same time, she has been on my… Continue reading Month 11: Preparing our Hearts and Minds
Well, it’s been a few weeks since we’ve given an update on our little guy. Generally, I’ve had a major lack in focus these past two and half weeks so trying to get anything done has been a hassle. Which is not normal for me. I am used to making my to-do lists and checking… Continue reading 35 Week Bumpdate!
Cora was born at 36 weeks 6 days. But she was born still, “sleeping”. The exact date of her passing…I cannot be sure. That unknown has haunted me for the past 10 months. How could I, her mom, not know when she died? HOW? I still have trouble wrapping my brain around it. It hurts.… Continue reading Month 10: Past the point of loss.
Today we hit 31 weeks with Crockett! Last week (at 30 weeks), we had two more appointments with our regular OB and specialist. Which means two more opportunities to see our chunky monkey :). Both appointments went really well, great in fact! At each appointment we have a sonogram done but both sonograms are looking… Continue reading 31 Weeks: Is this your first?
We have officially made it to the 3rd trimester! I am dancing while I type these words. I have not had a threat of pre-term labor but it still feels like an accomplishment to get to this point. We had two more appointments this week, one with our regular OB and another with the specialist.… Continue reading 28 Week Bumpdate
Okay this is technically a 25 week 5 days bumpdate. Which is basically 26 weeks so I should probably change my title but I’m too lazy :). Last update was our 20 week appointments. Since our 20 week appointment we have reached a few more milestones! VIABILITY!!! 24 weeks is viability. Reaching this week means the… Continue reading 25 Week Bumpdate.