It has been a while since I have written a post. This is in part due to being a new parent and having zero clue how to budget out my time. This is also in part to the emotional toll is takes to write a post. I usually write a post and its a huge… Continue reading Parenting Paradox
There is an unexpected grief I have been introduced to. Grieving the loss of who I used to be. My daughter died. I am different now. I am not the same person. How could I be? There is a need to fix things once you have been broken. Glue all the pieces back together. Maybe throw… Continue reading The Unexpected Grief
Today marks 11 months since losing Cora. I have also reached 37 weeks pregnant with her brother. I have passed my point of loss of 36 weeks 6 days. We have spent much of this past month preparing our hearts and minds for the delivery of her brother. But at the same time, she has been on my… Continue reading Month 11: Preparing our Hearts and Minds
We have officially made it to the 3rd trimester! I am dancing while I type these words. I have not had a threat of pre-term labor but it still feels like an accomplishment to get to this point. We had two more appointments this week, one with our regular OB and another with the specialist.… Continue reading 28 Week Bumpdate
It has been 7 months. We should have been celebrating Cora’s first Halloween and picking out cute costume(s) for her to wear. Instead, I packed up all of her clothes in the nursery. It was a very emotional and heart wrenching thing to do. I kept them out in case we were having another girl… Continue reading Month 7: Packing up.
This is fun. This is fun. This is fuuun?? That is what I keep trying to tell myself. Pregnancy is supposed to be fun. Exciting. Thrilling. Beautiful. Well, pregnancy after loss is not so fun. Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining about being pregnant. I am complaining about the feelings that come with being pregnant… Continue reading 18 Week Update: This is fun?
A conversation I’ve thought of over and over again occurred before Paul & I drove back up to the hospital to be induced. We had been wondering around the house, in shock, trying to process what was about to happen. I was sitting on the edge of our couch, both of us were in tears… Continue reading Month 6: Have Courage & Be Kind (Cora’s Rules)
**Warning! This is a trigger warning for those families in the loss community. This post might contain subject matter that is upsetting or trigger unwanted feelings.** For those of you that think this is an odd way to start off a blog post, you might be right. But I have learned that within the loss community… Continue reading A Rainbow Announcement
Grief…it is a tricky thing. When you google “grief” there are countless resources at your fingertips to help you. I did not spend a lot of time planning out my grief…how can one really do that? My plan was (and still is) to feel everything coming at me. To not deny any feelings or sweep… Continue reading Month Five: Am I doing this right?
It has been four months since our Cora joined the angels in Heaven. I have had a lot of time to reflect on many things these past 4 months but I keep coming back to our community. Our “tribe” if you will. I have had many people tell me that they do not know… Continue reading Month Four: Our tribe